and im not gonna let you guys use me as a bridge anymore, to get to the ones you like. too bad, one of your bridges has just collapsed. its not that i dont wanna help you all get tgt. but sometimes i think u take it too far. you forget that im a friend too, and only rmbr that im a bridge. in comparison to her/him, im not important at all. i can accept that, really, but i cant accept you neglecting my feelings as if i only exist to provide a link between you two. so there.
and dont expect to use me as a filler too. to fill up the gaps so its not too obvious for the two of you to go out tgt. really, i dont mind doing such things sometimes, its like doing charity work man. but you really overuse me sometimes. i dont wanna go to all the places just coz u/her/him wants to go you know. i dont wanna walk around endlessly so the two of you can spend time tgt you know. and i dont wanna have to go just because its convenient for you/her/him you know. how do you think i feel? oops sorry, are bridges and fillers not supposed to have feelings? well this one obviously does. if we're friends, stop doing it to me.
generally, i didnt mind taking the above two positions previously. but sometimes you guys really test my limits. and really, im not like the guardian angel of couples-yet-to-be-together. so stop treating me as one and expecting me to follow you guys ard and risk being dumped at the roadside when you finally get tgt. i can accept that im not as impt as the person. i can accept that you'd rather spend time with the person. i can accept that you will always do things for the person that you'd never do for other friends. really, i can live with all that. the only thing i cannot live with is you treating me like im supposed to accept all the shit you give me in the pursuit of her/him. i know its extreme, but if thats the only way we can be friends, than i'd really rather we not be friends anymore.
there are things that i will do for friends. lots of things. but stop testing my limits. you've found it. im not gonna apologize if you think im being selfish and thinking for myself only. honestly, have you been thinking about how i feel at all? bigger pple might be able to do it long term, but i cant. so there. i really dont think thats what being friends is all about.
sometimes, a girl's gotta do what a girl's gotta do.
a star fell from the sky;
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